Pain

I don't like to complain much in public, it isn't really my way. Usually I can just suck it up, and deal, and show the world, if not "shining smile" then at least not "tear soaked mess".

I was never really a fan of the mainstream holidays after Halloween.  At least, not once I got old enough to get over the whole "OOHH!! Shiny presents!" portion of my childhood.  I feel we expect too much of ourselves, and those we invite into our lives around this time.
  This has been a particularly bad season for me.  In the course of this month, I was unjustly fired, accused of theft, did not receive all the pay due to me from that unjust firing, my unemployment benefits seem to be in limbo with no human to speak to about it, my car is in the shop looking at, on the cheap side, 5-7 hundred dollars worth of work, I have little money in the bank, and now, to top it off, my sister has told me "You're a BITCH!  I hate you right now" all because she said "I have lost everything I cherish in the last 3 weeks" and I was hurt by it.  Yes, I know it sucks to break up with a guy.  I know it sucks to be broke.  But as long as I have my family- my kids, my parents, my sister, and, distantly, my friends, a roof over my head, a bed to sleep in, and all that implies, I have not lost *anything* I cherish.  And to imply that because she and her boyfriend broke up is so much worse than what anyone else has to deal with, implying that this part of her family is not cherished, is hurtful to me, insulting to us, and quite frankly childish.  And for telling her that I was offended that the people she knew less than 5 years were more cherished than the people that have been here for her her whole life, she called me a bitch, told me she hated me, and when I blasted her for that, (and admittedly, told her the truth which normally I would have kept to myself to spare her feelings) she unfriended me from fb, and I haven't heard from her since.
http://youtu.be/BpIUr7WjjRs
So great, I shouldn't have lost my temper, I know that.  Maybe I'm here seeking validation that what I'm dealing with now constitutes enough stress that I was temporarily insane.  I must've been because in 35 years, I have never told her the truth about how I feel.  That she is a one upper, that if I hurt, she glosses over it and tells me how *awful* everything has been for her.  That she's acting like a child,  that (and this is the unadorned truth) if I put her fb statuses next to the ones from a 15 year old I know, I can't tell whose are whose.

I think the term "temporary insanity" was coined for just this situation.  Or maybe, just maybe, I was finally sticking up for myself in our relationship.

Okay, I promise. Done with the drama now.

Thanks for Noticing me.

Still at it.

How was everyones Thanksgiving?  We had a quiet day here.  Just the same 4 diners as every other day, and my sis stopped by after for dessert. (:   I must say, if you're going to step away from the norm, and try new things, then doing it while you have no company is definitely the time to do it!   We had the nastiest sauce for the broccoli, and the sauce for the potatoes disappeared into them leaving no trace of flavor behind.  Next year it's back to plain veggies and mashed with gravy!
Also, if  you like broccoli, try this if you can find it...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Romanesco_broccoli
It's a Christmas tree! LOL!  And it *does* taste exactly like broccoli, I wouldn't lie!  Now it's the boys second favorite veggie!

I have so many ideas to make, and no time to make them!  Now is the time of year I make those orange air fresheners, you know the ones, with an orange, cloves, and ribbons and bows? (:  We had one hanging in our coat closet for *years*, before it finally lost its scent.
All holiday gifts have been started, and all but 2 are "done", in total 4 still need to be "finished".  Done meaning made, finished meaning all the finishing touches are added.
 Ddasha has been behaving extremely odd lately, I mean, even more odd than is her normal odd... (:

  

The little fruitcake.  

Well, that's it for now... 27 crafting days till the big one!  And as usual,

Thanks for Noticing me!